Blogging! Why am I doing this?! Ell oh ell. I started this wanting to journal/document recovery + getting back into fighting shape, but truth be told I haven’t done much to either recover OR get back in shape. A lot of me feels like I’m still hiding – licking my wounds – wanting someone to coddle me and take care of me. It’s been hard … Continue reading I’m definitely not good at this
Memories of cancer come up unexpectedly lately. The big events are never hard to call up – big procedures, big news, big feels. But the little stuff hits randomly. There’s a long hall in the cancer center between the elevator and the blood cancer unit. On days I felt good, I would strut and check myself out in the windows. Cancer unlocked some strong vein … Continue reading Tits Up
I’d barely made it home before the doctor called me. I needed to come back to the hospital – the results of my chest X-ray were not good. She couldn’t tell me more than there was a large mass in my left lung and nodules all over my lungs “too numerous to count”. I’d come back to get a second opinion on a diagnosis of … Continue reading Have you heard the news?
For those who didn’t read my previous posts (I can’t imagine why – I’m FASCINATING) I’m contending with a lot: recovering from chemotherapy, a broken tibia, a broken left hand/wrist, and a thoracotomy/lobectomy surgery. I’m forced into being a couch goblin, and the toll of all of this is showing itself ‘round the waistline and a few other choice places. Today, however, I received some … Continue reading Small, First World Success!
I’m at the cancer center for another follow-up visit. I’ve been on FMLA/disability, reviving from a major cancer-related surgery. I say that to say this – my physical appearance is low priority right now because everything is hard, everything hurts, everything is the worst. I grabbed a sweatshirt from the laundry and threw it on without looking. Mirrors are for the healthy. I’m in the … Continue reading Classy, thy name is Stephanie
Oh hey! I know what I want this blog to evolve into – an inspirational story of an amazing, awe-inspiring recovery and return to being not only an active person, but perhaps running a marathon?? Hiking in the Alps?! Some other cool ultra athletic shit?! Presently, I write this post feeling kind of down. The universe has done its best to kill me recently. In … Continue reading Hi, I’m Stephanie
Act 2 